Part One: Finding Out I was Expecting

 October 25, 2009 just before 6:00 A.M. is when my life "would truly never be the same" I had been taking pregnancy test for months now and was always irritated how quickly one solo pink line would appear,it never took more than a few seconds for a test to decide that my dreams of becoming a mother would not yet be realized.
It was late October and for the first time since last June I was convinced that I was not pregnant but, Kyler thought otherwise. Apparently he noticed how much more I seemed to be eating and that I was a tad bit on the grumpy side :) So There we were on a Saturday night standing in a Walmart isle looking at pregnancy tests. We both seemed to feel a little bit awkward and out of place...but I kept on reminding myself that I was married after all. I read the back of all the boxes and decided that I wanted to try the Clear-blue test with electronic results it just seemed so much more sophisticated than all of the others...and maybe it would give us the result we had long since been anticipating. That night I couldn't sleep. I kept on dreaming about taking pregnancy test one right after another and them all coming back with negative results. I woke up early the next morning already feeling frustrated and maybe even a little discouraged. But with a determination that no matter the results, this month I would have a better attitude. Before I stepped foot in the bathroom Kyler handed me a test. I quickly grabbed it just wanting to get it over with....knowing full well that he wanted this just as badly as I did. It took a full three minutes (but felt more like ten) before the test would read any type of results. I watched the pregnancy test in my hand suspiciously as a little time clock went around and around. I held my breath while my mind was racing with thoughts like "am I??...no I am sure I am not....but what if....why do I even do this to myself"...then the little time clock stopped and I was instantly overcome with emotion it simply read pregnant.

I blinked several times making sure I had read it correctly. Tears of relief, joy and fear streamed down my face. I quickly ran out of the bathroom looking as tired as ever (ya not quite how envisioned telling my hubby) and stopped mid step and just stood their while Kyler reached for the test results knowing that it would explain what the tears running down my face meant. He instantly took a giant step towards me and pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. With a broad smile he said those all to familar words "Our lives will never be the same." I just stood their crying. I have never felt so blissfully happy and overwhelmed all at the same time.
From that moment on our life's really never would be the same like a young bride I was faced yet again with a new definition of myself and that was mother...I feel so young and naive but am thrilled with the what the future will hold for our for ever family in the making.

xoxo