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These photo's don't really have anything to do with the post but he's awfully sweet!!

I often worry that my blog is to personal. That maybe I shouldn't share so many of the intimate/boring details of my life......but truth be told if I didn't do this the details wouldn't be recorded...plus the rate I forget things is quite alarming! 

Lately I have been feeling nauseated, tired, dramatic, achy, sleep deprived, grumpy, happy  anxious, excited, overwhelmed and on edge (almost all at the same time...., it's seriously exhausting:) I have been feeling awfully..... pregnant.  Just the thought of this would instantly bring  tears to my eyes. But at the same time in a weird way that seems so crazy to even admit out loud it seemed so exciting. Just the mere thought of having another child makes you love them, you already feel attached, I suppose you simply get attached to the idea. But having a four month old.......wouldn't be the best timing. Not only physically but emotionally. What those two little pink lines  equal is constant worrying that according to my dear sisters will never go away. Which brings me back to yesterday. 

I decided that either I was crazy or that something was seriously wrong with me (turns out it was a little of both ;) I finally broke down and with only a 15 minute notice Jett and I were off to the doctors office....needless to say it was one of those days that you throw a beanie on and call it good. My kind doctor asked me the one questions that always = instant tears. "Caitlin, is everything alright?" I start sobbing. While Dr. Scoville rolled over his chair and awkwardly patted my arm. I explained my concerns. I suddenly felt like a teenager telling their parents about doing something they knew shouldn't of. And plus how embarrassing is it that I am crying to my doctor. I asked him what was wrong with me, he being the nice man he is assured me there was nothing wrong with me....he is too nice because I am confident he thought it....I know I would have. He explained that my body isn't completely back to normal yet (thank goodness he is letting me use the hormone excuse :) and then he said for your Kyler sake I sure hope your not pregnant. He ran some test and the only thing I tested positive for was a bad urinary tract infection.

I instantly felt relieved but  at the same time I wondered why I wasted so much time and energy worrying about something that was out of my control anyway not to mentions  I spent $20 bucks on pregnancy tests leading up to my appointment.   It may not be possible but it sure would be awesome if I were one of those women that took life in strides the type of women that faced life with the attitude "come what may and love it."  But instead I am stuck with four extra pounds because I thought I was having "pregnancy cravings."......dang!

Have a beautiful day!!

xoxoxox