I am mother hear me roar!

When I was a little girl I used to carry around a little asian baby doll and pretend that someone just left her on the door step for me..because they knew I would make the perfect mother (I wasn't exactly sure how babies were made and that seemed reasonable enough ;) I carried around dolls until I was a bit to old waiting and dreaming about the day that I would be a "perfect"  mother. Now here I am with two kiddos of my very own and a lot of the time I think that my little blessing  are so darling and so. so. so exhausting. 

Children really aren't time consuming they are life consuming! Like many mamas I go to bed at night thinking about everything that still needs to be done! Before my heavy eyelids surrender to sweet rest a marathon of thoughts run through my mind...

"Did I brush Jetts teeth tonight? Oh my goodness did I brush my teeth tonight?? ....I am glad Wynnie doesn't have teeth....oh crap I forgot her vitamins.....thats like two months in a row!!" 

Life consuming I am tellin' ya!

A few events have transpired as of late that have caused me to shake my fist cursing the heavens and then fall to my knees and beg for his forgiveness.....and reevaluate my role, my job, my profession as a "domestic engineer" as a mother. I have finally decided to let go of my childhood fantasy of becoming the perfect mother (and the guilt that ensues) and have decided to simply become a better one. 

I think the first thing on my agenda is to start taking better care of myself and to get organized.

Back to the basics, love deeper, be distracted less and present more....more makeup less pajamas pants. More healthy dinners, trips to the parks and games of chase. Less time on the phone on the computer and nose in a book (less time in a book is a little extreme;)

It is time I take my divine role a little bit more seriously....I mean after all even in dream jobs you have to do things you don't necessarily feel like doing (or wiping;)

This is my chosen profession! My greatest aspiration.I would highly (as in very highly) recommend reading this post entitled Major league Mom by one of my favorite writers...Annie is definitely one of my daily reads....I lover her honesty....and I love her name! I need to print it out and put it on my refrigerator....so far I am 0-8!.....I am pretty sure that is almost three strike outs!

And this is Jett (2 months ago)....hear him roar! That fearsome roar is what sweet little Wynnie wakes up to every morning! Lucky girl! And me frantically chasing her brother the lion begging him not to wake her up....its a daily occurrence. 

*I disabled my comments because I love reading  them way to much....one thing leads to another and 20 minutes later I am pinning ways to get creases out of my carpet on pinterest.....and that was the sole reason my iphone and I had to break up......It was tragic really, I am hoping we will get back together soon! I am currently with a phone that is older and simpler.....but far less reliable and attractive....(shallow?) And heavnes knows that the last thing I  really need is an attractive distraction.....but Kyler if you are reading this I already have my iphone case picked out...older and simpler is not working out that great either....

But in all seriousness I am only an email away! I am hoping that by disabling the comments I will be more inclined to write more freely....we shall see.